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I'm posting this per request. This type of problem is common and we can see what perspectives people have. I will try to respond as well over the next few days.
Hi, I'd like to send a question to confidential consult.
I'm currently a master's student at X university doing a thesis degree. As such, I'm guessing it will look strange if I don't have my major professor write me a letter of recommendation for my medical school application (summer 2009), particularly when I want to apply to the university that I'm currently attending!
However:
1. I get the feeling my major professor doesn't much like me. I don't think she hates me, but I think she kind of finds me annoying. Which might be even worse than hating me.
2. Even though I'm in lab about 40-50 hrs/week, I don't interact with her much because I'm intimidated by her and haven't found her very helpful. The other 3 graduate students in the lab have been 200 million times more helpful than she has been. Life has currently been stressful in the lab because she expects me to come up with a thesis without any funding and without any guidance. She pretty much summarily rejected my first three proposals. Basically, at this point I have a somewhat unoriginal, uninteresting thesis about lima bean growth that can be COMPLETED, but only after a lot of struggling on my part.
3. My major professor's writing abilities are AWFUL. She writes rec letters for probably upwards of 100 students/year and I've SEEN her previous letters -- unoriginal, uninspired, and uninteresting. Her grammar is terrible. I have no doubt that many a medical school has seen her same old canned letters for every applicant.
4. My major professor has admitted to me that she doesn't find herself very intelligent. And I agree. (Well, I didn't TELL her I agree. I just DO agree).
5. I find my major professor self-absorbed, petty, and a gossip.
Yes, I DO wish I'd known all of this *BEFORE* I'd started the degree.
What on earth can I do to get out of this situation? I'm sure University X will call her to find out her opinion of me at the very minimum and I suspect interviewers may ask why I didn't get a letter from her. She's a glaringly obvious choice. If I explain my true feelings about my relationship with my major professor, medical schools may think I'm a total idiot for having worked in the lab in the FIRST place which brings me to my next point.
Quitting the lab entirely doesn't seem like a feasible option because I'm more or less being paid to work as a tech for her and I signed a two-year contract. I've seriously considered quitting the lab, but as of right now, I'm not going to commit to quitting this lab. The pay is decent and considering my student loans, I think it would just mess up my whole plan of applying to medical school if I had to simultaneously come up with an entirely new project, new major professor, and possibly an entirely new department.
Advice?