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Hi guys, I could seriously use your help right now. I am in a real rut at the moment.
After graduating last May (2020), I was originally planning to take the MCAT this January. I thought studying 8 months full-time (then focusing on extracurriculars after) would be a reasonable timeline for me to actually ace this exam. But, I wasn't realistic with the amount of self-discipline I needed to do this.
I still have not taken the exam as of yet. Studying at home, in my room, proved to be a challenge as I frankly lost a lot of motivation and energy. Part of this is attributable to a recent diagnosis of an autoimmune thyroid disease that had me sleeping 11-12 hours a day. I just underwent an operation for it in April and thankfully I am now in remission from the disease and getting some energy back with daily medication.
But the above isn't an excuse at all. I really just stopped caring about myself, lost motivation, and kept making excuses to push off studying and distract myself with nonsense while living at home. I got nothing done. I'm writing this while I'm completely ashamed of myself. My relationship with my parents, for pretty much the first time, has gone to s*** after I put up a facade of hard work and studying with nothing to show for it in the form of a real exam score. Yes, I've been screwing around this entire time.
All I have to show for the past year is a research project my friend and I are independently conducting. It is not published yet. So I'm now finding myself studying from scratch right now with a plan to take the MCAT in September, which I'm worried isn't enough time for me to achieve a stellar score (515-518+) given my GPA (3.6 overall, 3.5 science). Of course, my parents are not talking to me.
Any advice with regards to mending my relationship with my parents? What if I am not ready in September? What do I tell my parents then? Lastly, will a gap in activities for 2020 be suspicious come time for me to apply?
After graduating last May (2020), I was originally planning to take the MCAT this January. I thought studying 8 months full-time (then focusing on extracurriculars after) would be a reasonable timeline for me to actually ace this exam. But, I wasn't realistic with the amount of self-discipline I needed to do this.
I still have not taken the exam as of yet. Studying at home, in my room, proved to be a challenge as I frankly lost a lot of motivation and energy. Part of this is attributable to a recent diagnosis of an autoimmune thyroid disease that had me sleeping 11-12 hours a day. I just underwent an operation for it in April and thankfully I am now in remission from the disease and getting some energy back with daily medication.
But the above isn't an excuse at all. I really just stopped caring about myself, lost motivation, and kept making excuses to push off studying and distract myself with nonsense while living at home. I got nothing done. I'm writing this while I'm completely ashamed of myself. My relationship with my parents, for pretty much the first time, has gone to s*** after I put up a facade of hard work and studying with nothing to show for it in the form of a real exam score. Yes, I've been screwing around this entire time.
All I have to show for the past year is a research project my friend and I are independently conducting. It is not published yet. So I'm now finding myself studying from scratch right now with a plan to take the MCAT in September, which I'm worried isn't enough time for me to achieve a stellar score (515-518+) given my GPA (3.6 overall, 3.5 science). Of course, my parents are not talking to me.
Any advice with regards to mending my relationship with my parents? What if I am not ready in September? What do I tell my parents then? Lastly, will a gap in activities for 2020 be suspicious come time for me to apply?